November 5, 2018

Dear Diary,

I am 28 years old. 

No children, not married (not even in a relationship), living at home and definitely not in my career. 

Some of that is by choice, and some are just circumstances of life. But I am writing it and sharing it because I am owning it!

I believe far too many times, people (myself included) have a picture in their mind of what life should be like, and when it doesn’t work out, we fall victim to “extremes”; overcompensating, depression, settling etc.

And with the rise of social media, these feelings of defeat are being amplified. 

Of course, this is not where I pictured myself to be at this age, but does that make me a failure? 

My mother always said not to rush the process because “everything that’s for you will come when it’s time”, and in this day where it SEEMS like everyone else is progressing way ahead because of social media, that phrase keeps echoing in my head. 

Social media is great for many reasons, but also is very toxic…I’ll save that for another day because the goal of today’s entry is for me to finally write out loud what I’ve essentially been ashamed of. Now, I’m going to combat these dark feelings by focusing on the positives, while striving to attain my goals! 

-Justina