October 16, 2017

Dear Diary,

Hey, it’s okay!

I’ve had a life only I can testify to. I’ve had my fair share of joy, and where there is good, there is bad. Some days I punish myself harder than others because I take full responsibility for every decision in my life. If you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done…that is a decision only you can make. I think as adults we look at the “what if’s” and not the “I can”…we let our past (including our childhood), and our disadvantages take too much authority, too much power, too much control…

Take it back baby girl, take it back! 

Smile in the rain because a rainbow is on it’s way. You don’t understand Jeremiah 29:11…you don’t find yourself in easy situations because it’s in the mud that allows us to find our inner strength, our courage, our force, our inner peace. This is what allows us to hold our composure. 

Depression is real and it comes and goes! 

It does…it hurts when I see someone let depression win, and end a beautiful story. 

You have to keep going! My mother just walked past me holding an item in each hand, one shoulder is lower than the other…oh I started this sentence backwards. She broke her shoulder on Monday and they didn’t put on a cast because of where it’s broken. They discharged her and told her to do therapy. My mama ain’t doing no therapy lol she a G (we will try, Lord help us).

My parents were never married, but I never lacked anything from my peers that lived with both parents. I was loved and taken care of to the best of their abilities (I want to elaborate so badly on my makers but that will be a later entry). I hit my tips and I’m feeling like I just got shot, this lady walking around like nothing’s going on lol. 

The point of my post today is, your having a bad day, not a bad life! Make your own decisions, make things happen…shine brighter everyday. Burn what doesn’t add as substance to who you are or where you’re going. 

Everyone has a story…some will tell it and some will show it, but you’re not alone!



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